Hey:)
first...I hate the new blogspot, probably tomorrow I will suddenly fall in love with it....yes 'cause nowadays I spend my sparetime with falling in love...with fucking almost everyone and everything.
Probably it's not falling in love but that's the word and phrase which describes it the best.
The last two weeks I spent in the city in order to forget, what I had brought with myself from my lovely hometown/lame high school life. I'm starting to think that, the method I'm using is not the most perfect one.
Actually it is not perfect at all.
Many people say that after one big love the only thing you can do is to look for a new boy..or girl, so I spent pretty much every single day in the new academic year looking for new people. And then when I almost gave up on boys and started thinking about studying well in order to stop thinking about the past, he came.
Sat down next to me on the most boring class ever.And he talked to me. Not just hey, or is this seat occupied...no no boy. He talked, and he was nice. He had some really nice sense of humour.
Why am I talking in past tense?
After 2 weeks he lost all his nice features and what's left is me thinking about him every minute, every day.
So as a rational human being I often think about this: why am I so stupid that even though I understand the situation I am in and got all the warnings from my friends, I still do impossibly amazingly dumbass things, that i would never try if I took 0.0001 % of my brain capacity, and I would actually use it.
If you know the answer, well good for you. Please drop me a mail or a comment:)
What I want to do now is be a perfect student and this whole bunch of shit is not helping at all. So from next week on I gotta change my mindset into something like a pro student at school from the hopelessly romantic smalltown girl who still believes in every damn fairy tale.
That will probably not happen, I will never stop believing in true love, because every boy I once shut out off my life had found it, with amazing girls, and I'm guessing those girls could have been me and I know I screwed it, and today at this fucked up hour of sickness desperateness and boredom I might have a slight feeling of regret, but I once decided that those decisions are the best for me, so there is no way I am going to regret them.
Because, if once you are going to regret something what's the point in making a decision???
Other than this....why is it so hard for boys to call a girl? or just drop a message at facebook, I know I know it would look like you are interested in that girl, but hey we are not stupid(most of us) and if you tell us the truth it is so much better than just acting like a jerk not contacting the lady after things happened.
Don't get me wrong, I understand that ,if a boy only wants to have fun, and yes sometimes I want that too, only fun, no commitment and all, but if I want only stuff like that I have my mouth my voice and I am able to tell you that, so why can't you?
Sorry there will always be things I don't get. That's just life I guess.
Wish me luck I am going to my first self-defense class today. I am kind of worried about the teacher, and the others, but hey I promised this to my Mom, and I love her the most in this life so I'll do it anyways:) It has been a rough 2 weeks but the future is always just brighter, because not counting the jerks, I met some nice new friends, and I like them, a lot.
True story:D:D
(yeeesss I watched the 2 new episodes of HIMYM season 7 and it is awesome, can't wait for the next one :P:P)
Have a nice Day :)
Rina off to get her brand new mp3 player:D
first...I hate the new blogspot, probably tomorrow I will suddenly fall in love with it....yes 'cause nowadays I spend my sparetime with falling in love...with fucking almost everyone and everything.
Probably it's not falling in love but that's the word and phrase which describes it the best.
The last two weeks I spent in the city in order to forget, what I had brought with myself from my lovely hometown/lame high school life. I'm starting to think that, the method I'm using is not the most perfect one.
Actually it is not perfect at all.
Many people say that after one big love the only thing you can do is to look for a new boy..or girl, so I spent pretty much every single day in the new academic year looking for new people. And then when I almost gave up on boys and started thinking about studying well in order to stop thinking about the past, he came.
Sat down next to me on the most boring class ever.And he talked to me. Not just hey, or is this seat occupied...no no boy. He talked, and he was nice. He had some really nice sense of humour.
Why am I talking in past tense?
After 2 weeks he lost all his nice features and what's left is me thinking about him every minute, every day.
So as a rational human being I often think about this: why am I so stupid that even though I understand the situation I am in and got all the warnings from my friends, I still do impossibly amazingly dumbass things, that i would never try if I took 0.0001 % of my brain capacity, and I would actually use it.
If you know the answer, well good for you. Please drop me a mail or a comment:)
What I want to do now is be a perfect student and this whole bunch of shit is not helping at all. So from next week on I gotta change my mindset into something like a pro student at school from the hopelessly romantic smalltown girl who still believes in every damn fairy tale.
That will probably not happen, I will never stop believing in true love, because every boy I once shut out off my life had found it, with amazing girls, and I'm guessing those girls could have been me and I know I screwed it, and today at this fucked up hour of sickness desperateness and boredom I might have a slight feeling of regret, but I once decided that those decisions are the best for me, so there is no way I am going to regret them.
Because, if once you are going to regret something what's the point in making a decision???
Other than this....why is it so hard for boys to call a girl? or just drop a message at facebook, I know I know it would look like you are interested in that girl, but hey we are not stupid(most of us) and if you tell us the truth it is so much better than just acting like a jerk not contacting the lady after things happened.
Don't get me wrong, I understand that ,if a boy only wants to have fun, and yes sometimes I want that too, only fun, no commitment and all, but if I want only stuff like that I have my mouth my voice and I am able to tell you that, so why can't you?
Sorry there will always be things I don't get. That's just life I guess.
Wish me luck I am going to my first self-defense class today. I am kind of worried about the teacher, and the others, but hey I promised this to my Mom, and I love her the most in this life so I'll do it anyways:) It has been a rough 2 weeks but the future is always just brighter, because not counting the jerks, I met some nice new friends, and I like them, a lot.
True story:D:D
(yeeesss I watched the 2 new episodes of HIMYM season 7 and it is awesome, can't wait for the next one :P:P)
Have a nice Day :)
Rina off to get her brand new mp3 player:D
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