Day-Off, the new Friday

Hey :))

I am back with an other extremely exciting post about my trainee life.

It is actually not that interesting but I feel like, I always have time to blog when I have nothing to share and when I have something that I wish I could just share(not only for others to read but for myself as well to keep in my mind as a memory better) there are suddenly millions of obstacles I'd need to overcome to get to a computer log in to my account and blog.

That's why I always end up with emotional overthought crap on this blog instead of fun stories, and nice experiences about, work, friends, family and love.


BUT

New(academic)year resolution: BLOG everyday

Hahahaha, hope you guys are looking forward to the many many boring posts to come in the coming months.

I recently travelled to a beautiful place for 10 days and right now I am having a hard time remembering what I saw on which days exactly. It makes me kind of said, since it was considered as a huge thing for me since it was my first time travelling alone all by myself, with an airplane , out of Europe.

As scary as it seemed when I was still at home,it transformed into a really enjoyable journey. Even if during the day I had my upset, scared , angry or nervous moments, in the evening I always managed to sleep with a smile on my face.

 Maybe because of my nice hosts :)

I don't know what the future holds but I am sure I want to visit again, since there's a lot I haven't seen yet from the country.


By the way work is getting interesting, I know a lot more than I knew a month ago, and I am getting smoother day by day. Of course there is a lot I still need to work on: for exmaple my voice, I need to get louder. and faster, and less insecure about what I am actually doing , but this last one will come with time, and more knowledge about the whole system.



I have to confess, a few days ago I had a serious series of thoughts about quitting and finding something else to do, with less responsibility, but then I realized it's been only a month and I would be so angry at myself if I gave up so easily again. But the feeling is still there somewhere deep in my heart, and I know it will get to the surface from time to time, and I need to be strong again to say no to it.


 But I will be able to do it, i am a different person now, than I was last year.



Other news on Friday my cousin is coming from Canada to visit, and I'll have to plan something fun to do in the city so good luck for me with it. When I think about how relatives from Canada are visiting all I can dream of is me going to Canada as well, just to exerience a different life from the Hungarian style.

Well we can never know, one day I might be able to call my cousin or message her on facebook about my visit to Toronto :))))


Ahh I should really go, this Monday is actually my day-off, and I have so many things to do, and accomplish, yet all I do is weltering around the apartement.


Rina Off Have a NICE day



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