Christmas This Christmas..:D

Hiiii

I just finished watching Gayo DaeJun and it was...so so the I missed the most anticipated performances and I had to endure the pain of listening to trot for a whole 10 minutes(or more)
It's the kind of music I don't listen to even on my mothertongue:D

Today I feel like sharing this with the world, when I woke up my mouth was so dry a couldn't speak, i guess that's what you get if you sleep with your mouth open(cause you can't breathe through your nose....note:I hate having a cold)

Other

I thought about things while brushing my teeth in the morning.Even when you grow older you make mistakes..a lot of them actually but noone stops you then,More than that you are so much more confident about it. You don't care if you hurt someone, because you are old enough. What can I do when I realize I'm not the person I thought I was?
Am I supposed to change now?I should..I know and it would be so easy first time in my life doing what I really want, and not saying yes to things I don't really want.But I guess I'm scared, going down on a brand new road by myself is scarier than I've ever thought. In theory it seemed easier, smoother. Was I kept in a glass cage all along? I already broke some of the glass but blood scared me and now I try to fix the glass, but the noises and the air from outside is slowly reaching me.

Maybe I'm an attention whore, but if I'm a bitch I should look like one:)




but if I decide the path I should go till the end... What do you think? Am I just fed up with the holidays:D?
Maybe have a good evening:D

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