December:) Month of hope?

Hello,

although I know I have only one person who reads my stuff on a regular basis..well hopefully I still have that one person:D

Here I am back with nothing:D

Hectic week and the next weeks too.

Exams are nearing and I guess we can call this semester the nadir of my academic life, but it's all my fault.

I tried to many things at the same time which could have worked though if I tried a lil' harder.
But I'm still a lazy lazy bad girl, adn nowadays I keep losing faith that it'll ever change. I mean the room is still a mess and what am I doing instead of cleaning...checking facebook, twitter plurk...etc.
And I'm not gonna be hopeful anymore, writing down some rules and schedules to motivate or inspire me cause I can turn off this page anytime I want,honestly I did not even care about this page for two months:D
Probably gonna fail 2 subjects this time if not more, and I don't really want to go to school, it's easier to complain and say "ok, tomorrow I will go in"

on the other side I'm not sure what I would like to do if not going to this school.I don't have a plan to tell my parents, I used to have a plan B that reassured them that I can handle things, but I don't have that now.

I made this wonderful friends who are inspiring me,but still sometimes I lose control.

I should prepare something for a class and now I have a little courage that I'm able to do it, so I'll get going
wish me luck..oh yeah and I made a tumblr....no idea why still it's fun

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