Marriott. Again?

Dear Blog,

I have been neglecting you for a while, and I am so terribly sorry about it. However today I have this urge to write again.

This time, I will try to leave all the crazy personal shit behind, because let us face it, last time I tried blogging about my personal life and feelings, it just did not come out right, and I sort of hurt people I deeply cared about.

The reason I started to feel this way, that made me write again is, that I got my first real hotel job.

Not just an intership, not a summer job at a small inn, or at the family business, but a real opportunity to work as a hotelier, earn some real money and motivate myself to finally finish school and start living a life I have always dreamed of. Sort of.

The moment my phone rang with the offer/the callback from my supervisor during my internship/ I knew it was different. I have been living off the support my parents provided for 23 years, with occasionally working student jobs paying me almost nothing. I felt secure. There was no need for me to get out of my comfort zone.


I have fooled myself before, that this time would be different, adn even if i had to work double shifts at this restaurant as a hostess i would make it.

But up till now, it just wasn't enough.

I want to say it was because of this boy, that dumped me, or because of this friend I made during the summer, but it really wasn't just one thing that brought me to this point.

Last year was building up to this. I have always felt I started college too early. As a pampered small town girl, little did I know about the ways of the big city, or what I truly wanted with my life.

I am not saying I do know it now. I am nowhere close to that yet. However I do know at least what I do NOT want in my life. I don't want to waste my language talent. I consider myself a talent, but I never dared to explore how much of a talent I am.

You know when it all comes together and a thing leading to another just gives you hope, that life is not this unorganized chaotic place with no path leading through it. It all happens just for a bare moment. You see this one path shining that is luring you in, to step on it and start your next journey.


I am hired by Marriott again. Front Desk seems to be my first and only love so far, and I am happy about it. It is a good start to earn money, get acquainted with the types of guests, and give my life the kind of structure that will help me get reorganized. It will lead me to graduation, foreign adventures and so much more, Or at least I hope so.


Apparently I had this support all along in my darkest hours as well, in the form of a newsletter from Mr. Bill Marriott, I once subscribed to in my trainee days, leading me to this day.

I am once again a Marriott team member.


And so it begins....again. :)

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